academies should flatter me with extravagant awards
for my acting no elaborate cameras record
no laughter or applause, after my performances
just slammed doors after family counseling conferences
all of these medical offices should nominate me for congressman
I'm naturally masterful at conjuring false promises
must of been how I courted the baddest amateur porn actress look-alike
hard and colder than cash is
my shadow a shroud of smoldering ashes
asking for a glass of gasoline to wash down lit matches
I can't get off the mattress, the black controls my actions
but the fact is I'd rather sleep at home than in my classes
see honestly narcotics ain't anonymous to me
I'm close with my supplier like my momma want to be
like my father ought to be, hardly ever bothered to speak
but he taught me talk is cheap
I teach my loved ones what they lost is what it cost to talk to me

I can stop anytime I want to
famous last words that'll come back to haunt you
I can stop anytime I want to
hanging off the last branch I got to hold on to
I can stop anytime I want to
but I just don't want to

it's an intravenous time trap
you'll find yourself looking back at your life like time capsules
I'm history, the lost forgotten mystery
fist blistering mister frivolous fits gotta hit something
get something straight, I'm corrosive as bleach
I need a hit to get up, I need a hit to go to sleep
I get a hit or give up, I get a hit there goes a week of me spun
round and round, every day's a re-run
speaking on my demons but I'm never late to feed em'
watching as they eat em'
pieces of my peace of mind
feasting on the decent kind
my piece of history defined
by seeking for the least divine

I can stop anytime I want to
famous last words that'll come back to haunt you
I can stop anytime I want to
hanging off the last branch I got to hold on to
I can stop anytime I want to
but I just don't want to

caught black handed and black listed
didn't witness my past? you should be glad that you missed it
I could get twisted and flash
fill my fist with your cash
spend an hour in the bathroom trying to hit and then dash
if the last shall be first I'm ahead of the game
what's left of my life goes right in my vein
it's strange how pain killers don't lessen the pain or stress
that has kept infesting my brain
trust me you should not trust me
I've got a lie in my pocket it ain't dusty
trust me you should not trust me
come between my drugs and me and it's gonna get ugly
trust me you should not trust me
it ain't calm it's in chaos that I'm comfy
so trust me, you cannot trust me
my name is David but most people call me junkie

because I can't stop, even though I want to
famous last words coming back round to haunt me
I can't stop, even though I want to
last branch broke, hit the bottom and I fall through
I can't stop, even though I want to
so it's God I finally call to
so it's God I finally fall to
now I think I see a light